So the other day, I was lying in my bed, reading an e-book on my laptop, waiting to drift off to sleep. I like to read myself to sleep cos i have nothing else to do these days. In two weeks though, school's starting, so that's going to change. Anyway I digress.
So there I was, reading, right, and I drifted off.
You know that moment between sleep and wakefulness, when any small noise wakes you quickly? Yes, i was in that phase, when I heard some music.
Now, my building is usually very quiet at night. No loud music, nothing. So it was pretty unusual.
I awoke with a start.
I'm about to say something very stupid.
I thought it was (i'm almost covering my eyes n shame here)...
wait for it...
wait for it...
If you're laughing, please stop.
I actually thought I was hearing the trumpet. not a trumpet, but THE TRUMPET. THE.
I don't think I have ever been that scared in my whole entire life. Like, my whole entire life actually passed right before my eyes. All the Bible passages I had ever read, all the Left Behind books I ever read, all the end-time movies i ever saw...everything.
Like I said, I have never been that scared in my life.
I think what scared me the most was that I actually didn't feel myself moving. I didn't feel I would, you know, rise up to be with the Lord like it says in a particular chapter of Jude.
When i located the source of the music, I couldn't stop the tears from flowing. I ended up praying the most heart-felt prayer I have prayed in years. I don't know how long stayed like that.
It's not that I'm a bad person. Because I'm not.
But sometimes, i drift away from Jesus, and my greatest fear is that, it's on one of those occasions that he would come back for the church.
But i have come to understand something. It's not by being a pastor, or preaching to a hundred people, or by being a fanatic. It is by grace that we are saved. Only by His grace. And there is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus.
Reading the Bible does bring one peace of mind.
Frankly, I don't care if I only get to stand on the doormat of heaven. I just want to get in, and spend the rest of eternity worshipping God. That's really all.