''Tears don't help anything'' they say.
''Even if you cry, it wouldn't change anything''
I know that. Don't you think I know that?
But they won't stop coming.
I have bargained. I have begged. I have promised. I have yelled. I have done everything I can think of, save curse.
I didn't want this to be my last post of the year. I didn't.
My vision is blurry from them. I can't really see what I'm typing.
I feel terrible. This isn't how my year should have ended. It wasn't that great a year but it shouldn't have ended this way.
''Tears won't solve anything'' they say.
Shut up. What do you know?
What do you do when you've tried everything, and there's nothing else to do but weep?
I'll tell you. You pray. You weep. You pray some more. And you weep.
I shouldn't be crying, but they won't stop coming, the tears.
Please beg them for me? Tell them I don't want them.