Dear God,
How are you??
Super, I bet,
After all, you're God.
Well I'm not.
Super, I mean.
I'm drowning,
Sinking, and fast too.
They call you olowogbogboro.
That means you have long hands.
Why don't you reach into that deep, deep ocean
And save me before I drown completely?
I need to STOP IT.
And I can't do it without you.
I need your strength.
I need it Lord.
To save me from this ocean of sadness,
Of sorrow, of despair.
I need to STOP IT.
I have tried, Lord, do you like to watch me struggle?
I'm your daughter; I've heard you love me.
I'm still trying hard to believe that one.
For who could love the real me??
Because I put on a happy face,
Everyone thinks I'm happy,
But they don’t know.
No, they don’t know
That looking happy doesn't mean everything is ok
It only means you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.
I look around,
And everyone looks like a stranger to me
For if everyone is like me
Hiding behind a pretty, smiling façade
Then who are we all??
What demons and sorrows are really in this world?
Everyone thinks I'm a saint.
It drives me crazy
It disgusts me
Heck, I disgust myself.
Do I disgust you Lord?
I need to STOP IT
New Year resolutions haven't held.
Year after year, I renew them.
I never ask for anything else
Just the will to STOP IT
And the fact that it resides
Just between us
Doesn't make it any easier
Yet, I can't talk to anyone about it.
Even my mother doesn't know
And she's the best mother anyone could ever have.
So dear God
This year is running off
And I put my foot down
I say, enough is enough
No more, Lord
No more carry-overs
You've got to help me
All I need to make this work
Is you.
So what do you say, God?
How about it?
How about helping your home girl out?
Your daughter,
X0X0
