A Letter To God

Dear God,

How are you??

Super, I bet,

After all, you're God.

Well I'm not.

Super, I mean.

I'm drowning,

Sinking, and fast too.

They call you olowogbogboro.

That means you have long hands.

Why don't you reach into that deep, deep ocean

And save me before I drown completely?

I need to STOP IT.

And I can't do it without you.

I need your strength.

I need it Lord.

To save me from this ocean of sadness,

Of sorrow, of despair.

I need to STOP IT.

I have tried, Lord, do you like to watch me struggle?

I'm your daughter; I've heard you love me.

I'm still trying hard to believe that one.

For who could love the real me??

Because I put on a happy face,

Everyone thinks I'm happy,

But they don’t know.

No, they don’t know

That looking happy doesn't mean everything is ok

It only means you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

I look around,

And everyone looks like a stranger to me

For if everyone is like me

Hiding behind a pretty, smiling façade

Then who are we all??

What demons and sorrows are really in this world?

Everyone thinks I'm a saint.

It drives me crazy

It disgusts me

Heck, I disgust myself.

Do I disgust you Lord?

I need to STOP IT

New Year resolutions haven't held.

Year after year, I renew them.

I never ask for anything else

Just the will to STOP IT

And the fact that it resides

Just between us

Doesn't make it any easier

Yet, I can't talk to anyone about it.

Even my mother doesn't know

And she's the best mother anyone could ever have.

So dear God

This year is running off

And I put my foot down

I say, enough is enough

No more, Lord

No more carry-overs

You've got to help me

All I need to make this work

Is you.

So what do you say, God?

How about it?

How about helping your home girl out?

Your daughter,

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