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Today, I was checking the number of...'love messages' i have gotten in the past couple of weeks...you know, text messages, twitter DMs, facebook messages (no one emails me stuff like that, don't ask me why, I don't know)...there were a lot of them! Sometimes I wonder why they like me. I mean, i'm not a likeable person in that kind of way. I mean yeah in a friend-friend way, i guess I'm okay, i'm not all bad. But in a hey-I-like-you-I-want-you-to-be-my-girlfriend kind of way? I honestly think I'm too fucked up for that. So I guess I've just been thinking that if they knew how fucked up I really am, would they still like me?

Rapture.

Trigger: This is a religious post. Don't say I didn't warn you.

So the other day, I was lying in my bed, reading an e-book on my laptop, waiting to drift off to sleep. I like to read myself to sleep cos i have nothing else to do these days. In two weeks though, school's starting, so that's going to change. Anyway I digress. 

So there I was, reading, right, and I drifted off. 

You know that moment between sleep and wakefulness, when any small noise wakes you quickly? Yes, i was in that phase, when I heard some music. 

Now, my building is usually very quiet at night. No loud music, nothing. So it was pretty unusual. 

I awoke with a start. 

I'm about to say something very stupid. 

I thought it was (i'm almost covering my eyes n shame here)...

wait for it...

wait for it...

rapture. 

If you're laughing, please stop.

I actually thought I was hearing the trumpet. not a trumpet, but THE TRUMPET. THE. 

I don't think I have ever been that scared in my whole entire life. Like, my whole entire life actually passed right before my eyes. All the Bible passages I had ever read, all the Left Behind books I ever read, all the end-time movies i ever saw...everything. 

Like I said, I have never been that scared in my life. 

I think what scared me the most was that I actually didn't feel myself moving. I didn't feel I would, you know, rise up to be with the Lord like it says in a particular chapter of Jude. 

When i located the source of the music, I couldn't stop the tears from flowing. I ended up praying the most heart-felt prayer I have prayed in years. I don't know how long  stayed like that. 

It's not that I'm a bad person. Because I'm not. 

But sometimes, i drift away from Jesus, and my greatest fear is that, it's on one of those occasions that he would come back for the church. 

But i have come to understand something. It's not by being a pastor, or preaching to a hundred people, or by being a fanatic. It is by grace that we are saved. Only by His grace. And there is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus. 

Reading the Bible does bring one peace of mind. 

Frankly, I don't care if I only get to stand on the doormat of heaven. I just want to get in, and spend the rest of eternity worshipping God. That's really all. 

Day 15- My zodiac sign

I cannot believe I'm still on this thing though. I am both amazed and impressed. I never believed i would get even halfway. I get bored really really easily and so i can't believe i'm not bored yet. Well yeah I am, but I'm keeping on! That's pretty impressive, wouldn't you say?

Anyway this is going to be a really short post because I'm not really into all these things. Actually i'm not into them at all. The only thing i know about my zodiac sign is that i'm an Aries...and i think this is represented by a...what? ram? yeah i think. Anyway that's pretty much it. I don't follow my horoscope cos I don't believe in it. God writes my future.

And so, that's that :)

Do you believe in your horoscope?

day 14 - My outfit for today

I didn't get much sleep last night. Just for about 2 hours. I snoozed the hell out of my alarm clock but i still had to get up early. There's this conference going on in town...organised by Calvary Chapel. Anyway I'm a very simple person. Just gimme a teeshirt and a pair of jeans and i'm okay. So I put on my purple teeshirt/top (not sure of the difference) with the huge giraffe and my jeans. However I was not sure whether to wear my very comfortable flip-flops or my friend's gladiators (i slept over at her apartment last night) . However the gladiators make my legs look too skinny so i tend to avoid them. Anyway i decided against the flip-flops cos i was like, hey it's a conference. So i put on my blue jeans and the gladiators looked normal. However around midday, it got so hot that my panties were sticking to my butt.

Yes, it was that bad!

I had to go to my apartment to change into lighter jeans (my apartment was near the conference centre).

So i put on my grey jeans and my purple teeshirt :)

Soooooo wearing flipflops tomorrow. Most def. I will not wear long jeans/pants till then end of the summer!


I talk too much. I was just supposed to say what I wore and not how I came to wear it lol.

But yeah it's all good. Sorry for wasting your time.  Anyway here's a picture of the huge giraffe. Sorry for the quality. Webcam photos.
Actually lets have two photos instead. Lol it looks like the giraffe had braids in the second picture, but those are just my braids :)

xx

Day 13- My body.

Hello sweet people!

Yeah the topic is a bit...bleh.

Well for me anyway.

My body...where to begin?

Firstly I am a small person. I fluctuate between 48 and 50kg and I'm 5'4.7, almost 5'5. That's why people pick me up whenever they feel like lol

How do i feel about my body?? well let's just say...

I know i'm not that beautiful. I'm okay with that. However I cannot be described as ugly lol that's for sure.

Of course there are a few things I wouldn't mind changing about myself. Not that I would actually do anything about that. But yeah.

Like for instance, I would like a slightly bigger butt. And I would like a smaller nose.

Yeah that's pretty much it.

I tell myself I am very beautiful everyday though. So me too I can feel among the fine babes lol

Here's a very recent picture of me. Easiest to find cos it's also my display pic on all my social websites.

And here's the song helping me feel pretty since 2010 lol

I guess overall i feel just great about my body. I love it. Lol nah joke. I love me.

Day 12 - Five yummy guys

There was only one guy that popped into my mind.

ZACHARY LEVIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!

Somebody say Ayeeeeeee

Lol Pardon me. It's just that I find Zachary Levi really really really really really attractive. Really really. (Insert a million reallys here)

Other people don't find him attractive but I do. I stalk him on facebook and twitter. I ALWAYS youtube him. Like i have watched almost every youtube video of him. I mean it. Yes it is that bad.


Kay I'll make a list

1. Zachary Levi: This man is just amazing. My favorite tv show is Chuck. All because of this guy. He is amazing! 
2. Ian Somerhalder: ''Dead guy on Lost, now undead on the Vampire Diaries''
3. OT Fagbenle: I only just discovered this guy today. This. Guy. Is. Hot!! That is all. (He was in Double Wedding with Tia and Tamera Mowry of Sister Sister. 
4. ...
5. .... 

Well actually these are the only three people i can think of right now lol.  And i assure you, they are enough.

Day 11 - My family

My family is made up of my mother, my father, my brother, my sister and I :)

I shall now proceed to describe each of them in a few words ...

My Mom: From her name, down to the soles of her feet, she is as unique as they come. She's one of my best friends. I mean, granted, I didn't like her that much till i was around ten or eleven. Okay yeah I loved her, but we used to get on each other's nerves a lot, especially since i was a very, very stubborn child. But right now, there's hardly anything I don't tell her. I mean, if i decided to lose my virginity, she would be the first person to hear about it. Besides the guy of course. Lol. No for real though. If i made a mistake, she's the first person i would call. She is just amazing,

My Dad: Well what can I say? I've never been all that close to my dad. I mean yeah we used to do family stuff you know. My dad is pretty funny. He likes to crack jokes. I think if my mom were away for a while, we would be spoilt children.  Nah for real. Whenever my mum gives us money, it's 100 bucks per day. But my dad would give you 500 and even ask if you need more. But that's pretty much it. I never go to him when i have a problem or when I'm feeling down. Only when I need money lol. And he never lets me down when i need money. Even if he's broke he will never tell me. I love him.

My brother:  Mean mean mean person lol. He turned 21 yesterday. How can I describe him? He's pretty awesome. Let's hope he doesn't read this. Yeah no he wouldn't. He hates to read stories. He's the one who made me the tomboy that i am today. He's the one who used to bribe me to play football with him. He's the one with whom i used to climb trees and fences and try to boycott rat traps in someone else's compound. I used to believe every word that came out of this boy's mouth, no matter how stupid it sounded. I remember once he told me he never ever used to fart. That he was an angel. And even when i heard him fart, he said it was just the chair. Imagine. And I believed. Lol i was gullible then. I think i was kind of like the brother he never had. It wasn't until he went off to university and one of his friends actually said i was pretty did he start noticing i was a girl lol.

My sister: She's all of 18 years old. Amazing. She's the smartest one of us. She likes to read and is almost always top of her class. She looks up to me and she thinks i'm amazing :) Whenever she feels down, she beeps me and I call her and we talk for long minutes. She's sweet and naive, and she loves the Lord so much. I'm happy for her about that. She used to grumble a lot. Before. I hope that has changed now. I pray it has because gosh! it used to drive me crazy. She used to be my experiment-y kind of person. Like when i learned something new, i would go try it on her first. I even convinced her to shave her head when she was six and I was seven. Lol. Terrible times. She's just...she's really really sweet and she loves me and I love her.

Then there's me.

I am pretty much amazing too lol. Agree with me or get lost.

God bless my family.